

I thought I loved him then.
My favorite thing to do at almost every wedding is to watch the groom! Yes i am katherine heigl in 27 dresses I love watching the grooms reaction to his bride coming down the aisle. Well it turns out it's not the only time where watching the man makes your heart just sink with awww....
We were sitting in a doctors office i was laying on a table and my husband was sitting next to me with his fingers interlocked with mine. Then the doctor pointed to the ultrasound machine "that's your baby."
That right there, that moment, you almost missed it! The moment your husband sees his baby for the first time.
I remember his face so vividly when the doctor pointed out the little peanut growing in my belly. I didn't think I could fall in love with the man I already fell in love with. In that moment whem you see the man you love glow with excitment after seeing his blob baby, i dont know about you but i fell in love all over again. Over the next 9 months you get to watch him glow over the kicks he gets to feel and the rolls he gets to see. I thought my husband was protective of me before! For the next 9 month My belly was the most protected thing in the house!
But then the moment comes where he gets to see his baby for the first time and in our story that baby is a girl and the way he looked at her the first time she entered this world is another vivid picture I will always remember. Watching the man you love go from husband to father is such an amazing thing. Watching him so gently cradle this little newborn baby and just staring with such pride.... you once again fall in love all over again.
It doesnt stop there though! Then you get to go home and you get to watch him kiss her goodnight and cuddle her all day and as she grows you get to watch him grow into a more loving father. You get to watch him protect and teach her. I mean is their anything sexier then walking in on a man singing old mcdonald in a silly voice to a 6 month old little girl! I think not! Watching him love her is not the only thing that will tug on those so very sensitive heart strings. We as mothers spend the most time with our babies especially if your a stay at home mom and if your breastfeeding. We as mothers bond with our babies very quickly don't you think, but there is something so amazing about watching their love grow so fast for their daddys! I mean my daughter gives the biggest smiles to her daddy when she sees him! I spend every single minute with her but when her daddy walks into the room or she hears his voice that little grin of her gets bigger then ever before. Like so big it makes me cry sometimes! It's one of the many incredible experiences that comes with being parents.
The day I said "I do" to my husband my heart was ready to burst, I didn't think I could love this man more then I did that day.... until that man became a father.
Matthew 5:9 “Blessed are the peacemakers, for they shall be called sons of God.”
I have been with my husband for 6 years, married for 1, & a LEO wife for almost 3 now. We have a beautiful baby girl, a dog, a cat, & we are in the process of buying a house. What a beautiful life we have been given! Every week 5-7 days a week I watch my husband shave his face and his head, he puts on his tactical pants, throws on his under armor hoodie, laces up his boots, straps on his gun, & grabs his lunch kisses his little girl and his wife and squeezes us both. As he walks away I say one last "I love you & drive safe." It is probably the hardest thing to say when he leaves the house to go to work, but Loving him is one of the:
Easiest,
Hardest,
Greatest,
& scariest Things I have ever done.
It's easy to love someone who is so selfless. Someone who will walk in front of you to protect you from the dangers that surround you. Love someone who will always put their well being last to protect you. Some one who will risk it all for a stranger.
It's hard to love someone who has to walk out the door into the world where people look at him as a bad guy. It's hard to read the mind of a man who might have seen something on his shift he just can't shake. It's hard to read the mood he will be in after a long shift. It's hard to love someone who you worry about every second of every minute of every hour they are gone.
It's is the scary the world we live in has made the people we love look like monsters. It's scary they walk the streets with targets on their backs it's scary knowing you could get the phone call. It's scary waking up and it's 2 hrs past the time he should have been home. Life gets scarier when you love a LEO.
It is the greatest feeling to love a man with such courage, respect, & love for others. A man who loves strapping on his boots and patrolling the roads our families spend their days on. It is the greatest feeling when he walks through the door the same way he left. The kisses are sweeter and the hugs are tighter and love grows so much stronger.
My husband is a father, a son, a nephew, an uncle, an officer and a best friend. It so very easy to love a man of so much meaning. It's easy to stray toward all the negative in this career path but there is so much positivity you just have set your mind on the positive end of thinking.
Romans 13:1 “Let every person be subject to the governing authorities. For there is no authority except from God, and those that exist have been instituted by God.”
It was 8:13pm on a Thursday when my life changed forever. I was laying in a hospital bed going through what was probably the worse pain of my life when the doctor yelled "push!" One more time. Then there she was, laying on my chest with eyes wide open. Our baby girl made it into this world. We were officially parents. Now let me give you a quick
Insight.... I was a preschool teacher and worked with all ages from infants- 5 year olds, so i was ready to be a mom and new almost everything to expect. The late nights, rashes, diaper changes, feeding, you know everything you think of and read when it comes to your baby and what life is going to be now. There was one thing i was not expecting though and it was something that hit me in full force. I never new until i held my 7lb 2oz baby what kind of love could poor out of me. We as moms go through some of the hardest times during pregnancy and some breeze through it, some need emergency interactions and others push them out withour any effort, some breath and fight through the pain others need some help with it, but there is one thing I think mostly every single mother can share, the amount your heart grows and how much love it just started pumping out! Lets pause for a second and really think about this we carried this child for nine months, we went though the exhaustion, the back pains, the morning sickness, the rib kicks, the organ punches, i dont know about you but i found myself yelling at my cute bump to stop sometimes and so much more to get through 9 months of something so amazing that not all women get to do,feeling your baby move and grow inside of you is something for another day, but to then go through one of the most painful experiences and At the end of all of that, a perfect little baby is now yours to cuddle and feed and help grow. I wasn't prepared when 2 days later i looked at my sleeping little newborn and to burst into tears because i just loved her so much. I didn't expect to wake up once every hour just to stare and watch her little chest move up and down with every little breathe, and i didn't expect to ask God everyday how did i ever live every single day of my life without this little girl in it. The love of a mother is one of the most powerful things I have ever felt and I didn't even see it coming.